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Peace Up. A-Town Down 2007

Goodbye.

TTYL.

You suck. Bye.

That’s what I have to say about 2007. As you can see I absolutely loved every second of it.

It hasn’t been an easy year for me. There has been too many deaths and some huge unwanted changes. Changes I can’t even write about. Therefor changes most of you don’t know about. Changes I am still desperately trying to adapt to.

I figured I would write this 2007 wrap-up and bitch and complain about everything that sucked about double-oh-seven. But nope. I won’t do it.

INSTEAD

Guess what I did in one year?

In one year I ran 615 miles. Six hundred and fifteen miles. 989 kilometers. I technically ran the width of the state of Virginia a little more than three times. The were a few months when I ran the width of Connecticut in those mere 30/31 days.

I ran a freaking marathon. I still can’t believe it. 26.2 miles. I did it.

I’ve been through 3 pair of sneakers as well as dozens of socks and sports bras. My feet have taken a huge beating in ’07. And guess what? They aren’t getting a break. I’ll keep running up, until and through ’08. Thank you Nike+.

I turned 21. A perfect age. The freedom to go out and get a drink is one I will always appreciate. Always. Self-medication (remember my year sucked?!)…yessss.

I landed three internships and was able to meet some pretty fabulous people through 2/3 of them! Not too bad. Because of the people I worked with and the trust they put in me and my work I feel prepared for this next step in ’08 called FIND A JOB.
And because one of those internships I started this blog. Without “I’ll think about that tomorrow” I would never have realized how much I love to write. I love, love, love, love, love it! And to read (check out my blogroll these people are amazing :)) Running and blogging have become my addictions. Healthy ones? I like to think so!

I got a job. I went to my classes. I got good grades. Blah.Blah.Blah. Not life’s highlights. Remember that. There is much more to life then those things. Even if they make your parents and grandparents proud. I say “whatever man.”

I dyed my blonde hair brown. And I loved it. In fact, love it. I’m still a seductive brunette. Going back to blonde eventually? Ehhhhh, I’ll think about that tomorrow 😉

I’ve been blessed to have amazing people in my life who love me. Who let me go through my shit and just stand-by. Or jump in when the shit hits the fan with simple cards that say “I love you”, hugs, tears, wine, surprise Bud Selects and long talks. Thank you. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for attempting to understand. And thank you for admitting you don’t! You know who you are. I love you and I promise I’ll get back to “normal” eventually. I promise. I know I shocked at least one of you by being “human”…so I might shock a few more by saying “yes, I am human.”:)

At the end of this year this is all I can think:

Through the hard times you learn the most about yourself. Even when you just want to say scream and cry as loud as you possible can “I KNOW ENOUGH ABOUT MYSELF FOR NOW, THANK YOU. I AM READY TO STOP LEARNING IF THAT MEANS THINGS AREN’T GOING TO SUCK SO MUCH”

Hey, if on the 16th mile you feel like you are on top of the world don’t get too confident because by mile 22 you wish you could quit. But I’ve learned that if you are me, you don’t, won’t and can’t quit.

I keep running. Even if I have to walk up a few hills. I will cross the finish line. That’s just the type of person I am.

So thanks for teaching me that 2007. Although at the beginning of this post I wanted to erase you from my mind forever, I will hold the trials and accomplishments I have endured this past year close to me forever and ever.

It’s just another part of me.

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence
by every experience in which
you really stop to look fear in the face.
You are able to say to yourself,
‘I lived through this horror.
I can take the next thing that comes along.'”
— Eleanor Roosevelt

*happy new year, 2008 will be fabulous*

How much does a Polar Bear weigh?

Enough to break the ice.

Hi, i’m back. I know, I know…it’s been a while.

You will be happy to know I survived the LSAT and the 20 mile run.

How did I do on the LSAT? I have no idea.

How did I do on the run? Amazing.

But enough about the Saturday from hell…on to bigger and better things.

Like affection.

Are you affectionate?

I’m not and I need to step it up.

Neither side of my family  is (hey, fam if you want to argue you can…). We don’t hug and kiss and all that mushy gushy stuff. We love each other. We tell each other “Love you” but not at the end of every phone call. I think we all need to step it up.

Kisses

Hugs

Cuddling (ehhhhh)

Holding Hands

Touching ( I said touching…not fondling!)

Yes, I have done all of these (Ahhhh shocking! I know I am a crazy.) but not all out in public. I get uncomfortable. Issues?! Maybe yes. Maybe no. I should really get over this.

Question: Why do I think I need to up my affectionate side?

Answer: Because maybe it makes other people feel more comfortable around me.  And maybe it is through the amount of affection I show that people judge if I like them or not. Where as I like people to talk about it maybe I should start pulling the “if your gonna talk about it, you better be about it” way of life.

I am the queen of the slow jam playlist and I know romance when I see it. I also know corny-ness when I see it.

Now that I wrote this down and had time to think about it, maybe I will try this affection thing next month. It sounds harder than the LSAT followed by a 20 mile run.

If Paula Abdul were still singing her early ’90s hit (please don’t Paula) she would belt out that I was “a cold hearted snake.” I hope at least one person out there knows that song and is singing the rest of it.